Just keep swimming

I want to blog. I want to write. I want to put creative juices back out into the world.

But I haven't. I don't.

In this attempt to keep running and losing weight, everything I hear/read is that if you don't keep at it, it won't get done. Also if you have no drive, no motivation, then you won't stick to it.

I used to be part of a VERY creative world. Granted I was the analytic side, but it was constant creativity, constant creation. And then I got sick. And everything changed.

Flash forward to 3 years after college, and I miss it. I fill the void with TV shows and Big Finish Doctor Who audio plays and needlework. But it's not the same...

I don't like it, so I'm going to change it. I don't know what you'll read here. Book reviews, tv recaps, running updates. I just have to remember that this is my space, where laii can make more appearances and be less professional.

So send me your support, your ideas, your laughter as I attempt to indulge in this thing called writing again.

12 Things

I found this list on ...unSimply Celia who is an adorable newlywed who's blog I found recently. And seeing as I've been needing some self-motivation/self-appreciation, this is a good jumping off point. Original post found here.

12 Things You Should Be Able to Say About Yourself

1. I am following my heart and intuition.

I truly believe I am. I've learned to be very flexible with all the changes that have happened in my life, and while I didn't always come out on top, I'm in a good place.

2. I am proud of myself.

Yes. Undoubtably. I've accomplish a lot. Just within the last year, I've "climbed the ladder" at work with two different changes to my job.

3. I am making a difference.

Not as much as I'd like. I donate to charities, but I used to be much more involved. I'd like to do that again.

4. I am happy and grateful.

Very much so! I don't know what I would do without my family, my friends, my furbabies, and of course Adam.

5. I am growing into the best version of me.

I certainly hope so. There's always room for improvement, but I'm very content right now.

6. I am making my time count.

eeeeh.... Not so much? My to-do list is long and I'm avoiding it all. This needs work. But when I'm focused and everything is in sync, then.my time is used very wisely.

7. I am honest with myself.

No - I've adapted too well to hiding things from myself. Actually writing that is step one. Hopefully I can stay honest to myself from here on out.

8. I am good to those I care about.

Oh yes. I have a mother hen mentality. If someone needs help, and I can be of help, you can be sure I'm there.

9. I know what unconditional love feels like.

yes :)

10. I have forgiven those who once hurt me.

A few years ago, my answer would have been no. But the longer its been, the more I realize that holding on to those feelings doesn't help me. I'm learning to let go and to forgive.

11. I take full accountability for my life.

Yes. I am this way because of what choices I have made. They weren't perfect choices, but they were the ones I made.

12. I have no regrets.

No. Surprisingly no regrets.

What I can say is that my choices made me who I am today. I'm talented, dedicated, dependable, trustworthy, caring and most of all, I am me. No one else can do things the way I do them. No one can replace me. Believe in yourself and dreams come true.

Thankfulness

Do I care that this picture is 2 years old? Read my face....

There's a lot to be thankful this year:

the support of my family and friends as I've transitioned to different jobs

that my health is in a much better place

my Disney wedding planners who took my ideas and are making it a reality

that Adam and I have a place that we can call home

that the budget allows some room for frivolous spending!

working 15 minutes away from home vs 45 minutes by way of the interstate

softball! Go DRC All Stars!

Other silly things I'm thankful for:

Lady Earl Grey

Arnold Palmer Half and Half Zero

coffee, coffee, coffee

automatic timers on the coffeemaker at work

my crockpot

Hulu + Netflix

Shiny Sinks (thanks FlyLady :D )

fitbit + myfitnesspal

that while I haven't been dedicated to NaBloPoMo, at least I know it's there?

Oh. And this:

day 4

Obviously I'm kind of terrible at writing daily. Missed day 2. Missed day 3. try try again right?

so mini-goal: make the post longer than a tweet. that can be do-able, right?

Friday: Adam and I saw Wreck-It Ralph. we may be seeing it again today.
Saturday: caught up on the DVR. then Party for the Senses at Epcot.
today: hulu-ing. lots and lots of hulu. why is my love of television so great???

photo-a-day - hasn't happened yet. 30 day shred - might start that today... we shall see.

--commitment--

Well... I'm going to try it. Maybe if I work the two of them together I might actually get somewhere with all of this.

I like my blog. I really do. And if I can make it a regular thing - well, that can't hurt right?